I’ve been rather busy for months. After I fixed a weird database issue that popped up and got sick of fighting with a couple of incompatible WordPress plugins, I kind of just, gave up on the blog. Only one post so far this year, about the new website “for my employer”. I say employer but I partly own the company also, and was reminded of that recently, eventually it will be my responsibility.
Times have been rough, first world problems still pulling hair out rough, but still rough. I took advice of people I shouldn’t and did a really stupid thing last year. I asked someone a question, which I absolutely expected “no” for an answer, but, the other party trying to be gentle didn’t say no directly and that bothered me. I was trying to prove someone wrong, I was trying to prove she would say no, but I needed a direct answer, and what I got, like I said wasn’t a direct answer. I got frustrated and it escalated, and I said something out of anger that wasn’t even what I meant. I lost more than just a friend that day.
There were a number of other mistakes I made, out of anger and frustration, and I was deep in my emotional pain.
If you happen to stumble upon this, the best I can do say I am sorry, but sorry can only do so much, when there’s hole in the fence or the plate is already broken on the floor.
I can say, I’m ok, I’m fine, the rough spots after the fact are all going away, another friend moved in, there’s no three of us in my condo. We also have new lights and new floors.
Working on me, now, doing what I enjoy even if it’s just by myself.
I’m going to reinstall the Thesis theme on this thing soon, and maybe actually post regularly again. I don’t know yet, have some ideas rattling around.